No rants today, or for many days to come I think. Listening to music and self advice seems to have calmed me down a lot, and I'm at the regretting "how things could have been different if I'd only did that" stage, which I think would be over one this bloody hangover is gone. And after some stupid mistakes and desicions by my friends were told to me, I came off realising that heck, we're all somehow better than that other person, and we're never the worst off them lot. Looking back at my first blog kinda amuses me in some weird way, not knowing how did I managed to posted that..

Strange as it seems, I'm quite eager to have another go at a relationship :/ ... The idea of getting hurt and thus be afraid or regret is still a stranger to me, and I think I had a bad teacher cause I still at times has no idea what the heck I'm supposed to be learning from all of this bloody stuff. But, I suppose the fact that I believe that "better to have loved than lost" seems to be the holding point of all this, so I can learn no lesson or regretting at all yet cannot be faulted because well, I've loved and lost, so now it's time to move on to something better, like listening to music or taking up "Leaning to Eat in 10 Easy Steps, Vol:1" as a hobby or something. But really, I'm trying to fil up my life with things that I can enjoy, like my serious consideration of taking up drumming classes, and it's sad to know that I cannot take up music producing more, as I've really enjoyed the 6 month course I went 6 months ago or so. But life's a bitch, even though you grow to love her. Someone told me I'm a depressed and emotional person, a Freaking, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional ( I blame The Italian Job, that little piece of shit movie attempting to look cool by putting a few decent car running at top speed, I mean I've seen Kancils doing even more dangerous stunt then they did, and they don't look cool, did they ? ). But really, anyone who finds their life fullfilling and decides to stay that way is a sad sad human being. We are and should be on the constant look for any flaw and correct that. Yes, you have great parents that are rich and caring, you have a great girlfriend who is even better in bed, yes you have a nice job which pay even more than you've expected and you have superb friends who understands you, what could be more better ... ? Well, start donating blood then, give to charity then, help out others that are in need of anything, or simply try something new and hard, like saying thank you to anyone who has help or offered any kind of services, no matter how simple or minor the job would be. It might not have meant anything to you, but it might make the day of the waiter at the mamak, but maybe not. Either way, try. It won't hurt, would it ? I do try to say thanks everytime, and my friends are at times freak out, "why are you saying thanks to a waitress that is jsut doing her job, and we're paying for her services" .. Well, go figure.

Well, it's late, and I should be sleeping now by the unwritten laws of human. So, as I sign off with a new respect for Sun Yan Zi's song, especially Wo Bu Nan Guo and Zhong Yi Tong Le, I'd wish you all a good life and a greater regret on what you could have done to make it much better :).