I dunno if I should continue to reveal my personal love life onto here. I would love, I got nothing to hide. But I do respects the significant other's wish to keep it private or quiet. So, I may go AWOL on my reports about it, we'll see. I love bb, no doubt about it I guess. I might not be the best boyfriend, but I certainly don't deny my feelings for her. She might and quite possibly will reject me, but I'm already past the point of no return. Do I or can I get hurt ? Yes. But do I care ? No.

This will be an *almost* official writing that I'd be by her side no matter what. I've gave her my words for it and I will keep it. I dunno what to be around her, what to say around her, how to act when I see her. I just wants to look at her, listens to her, watching her smile, feeling her charm and remembering her laughs. I might not mean alot to her in anyway, my actions may not be any good, but I can't do anything about it, the feeling of lost fills me each time I see her. The feeling of wanting fills me, the feeling of understanding gets me. I felt complete at times, I feel.... love.