Wow, it's been sometime eh ?
Well, I'm back to updating it for now, seeing that this is actually read by 2 person who gets a nice laugh at me from time to time and was dissapointed that I stopped this few days ago. Apologies. Was quite busy these past few days. But doing the same old things, so it gets quite well, boring to me at times. But at least good news all around right ??
To start it off, it has been a bittersweet week, on one hand, my phone bills are getting higher, and I am not sure whether to say that it's a good thing or a bad one. We're hitting it off quite ok at times, and I really do think i have a nice chance of getting a relationship to work here, and she has dropped a lot of hints, asking me things, what she means to me, what she is to me, stuffs like that. But for some reason, I don't think I'm ready... I'm enjoying this too much, single life has bring back a lot of smiles I lost during that swinging moods of my fourth relationship. And not failing to mention the toll it'll take on my income, but that's more of a side thingy, since I really still don't grip the concept of value of money much too well. Don't put much thought into what I'm spending it on, as long as that was what I wanted at that moment.. you know that feeling ? Yes you do, I'm sure you have spended hundred of dollars on a makeup or dress that doesn't fit you, or 8 buck on that porn that doesn't interest you. Yes, you did. But for that moment, for that second of knowing you have just bought the best darn thing of your life is well, magic. Well, then there's friendship to consider, I'm having a nice friendship going on now with her, and would like to keep it to that, maybe a bit extra.. but really nothing much more. So we're back to square one really, and a small tug-o-war is going on, at times I'd love just to have her around, and at others, well.. she does it .. It gets boring at times, she does have those little mood swings that I have no idea if it was caused my pms or just simply her style of doing. Either way, I hope I won't find out the hard way ... but, there's something a bout beary that I can't quite understand my attractions to. One look at her, I melt a bit here and there, for no particular reasons...maybe her smile...maybe not...but I don't really care...as long as this electric still exist, I'm happy to go along with it. bless her small little smile..
On another note, my ex-gf's father passed away yesterday. Which brings me to a certain position of life I will always be uncomfortable with, going to a funeral. I'm never going to fit in, and never will I guess. I jsut have no idea what my role is supposed to be in the part of the play. I'm neither the one who cries, not the one who feels say and offers help and condolences or the one who acts like a bastard by not attending at all. How can I be sad ? As cruel as this may seem, I don't know that guy... Even if I did, I sadly have a strange outlook at life, and I do tend to get over death well, easily. We come from nothing and we're going back to nothing. I'm usually the guy who goes there, offers condolences and well, fucks off to the side looking for a thing to do as we're not allowed to leave a funeral until after 4 hours or so, until respects has been well paid. You cannot go in there, pray, offer condolences and fuck off. You'll be shot to death. Stick there for 1 hour or so, looking dumb, drink your mineral water and well, look around for any amusement really, talking cocks, gamblings, kids that run around, or smoke. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate funerals, I just don't fit into it. There are those who know their roles in the respective plays, funerals, birthdays, wedding dinners.. I don't. I fit in lets say, a theater, where no one really gives a shit about you, yet in a sense, are a part of a community that both of us are in. Which reminds me, Harikiri.. or was that Harakiri is showing in a theater near you !!! Actors Studio Bangsar :) It's only 27 buck, so really, there's nothing to lose. It's a comedy ..so it'll suit me fine. Back to topic, what am I going to do ! :( .. I can go there, but well, I rather not go alone... I don't like to be alone at these. I'd tell you how I did later on, if I do go, which I will when I think I should.
Have tons of movies I haven't watched, Trainspotting, Freddy vs. Jason, One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, and no time to boost. My luck, eh ? Plans of vacation on the nov thingy changed again, agreed yesterday by the board of commitee, now we're going to spend
a night in Terengganu before decending to the cold, harsh and rugged hills of Genting. It'll take patience, road skills, and money to pump a full tank of gas in order for us to do 180km/h. And most of all, bloody luck. Luck ! ..The same place I'm going next week for a day or two, yes it's that fun going to a fun fair uphills :).. Let's all hope beary can go along, because she's still undecided as her timetable maybe changed, or not. Here's to luck ! ...It's going to be a very much torturing november, because I might be going to either aussie or japan also, and maybe stay back in klang east sushi and drink beer, so I really don't know. Aussie would have it advantages, getting cds I failed to locate in M'sia, language I can understand and well, getting called mate and cheers alot :) . On the other hand, it's quite boring and nothing else much that I can be amazed at, not like Japanese where there are gadgets, nifty electrical thingys, great music stores with bonus songs, girls, food, girls, more foods and some quite amazing site which blends the ancient with new, the scenery at some places is nothing short of wowness, and did i mention girls ? :p .. But the language, cost of living and well, lack of piracy really dampens thing a lot I guess. Haish, decisions, decisions, and that is even before I'm sure I'm going :O
Guess "I'll never stop the rain by complaining, because I'm freeeee, nothing's worrying me" is quite true for now. Things has comed quite fast and furious, which reminds me of Malaysian drivers. Wh oh why must those 45 year old aunties driving a mercedes like to endanger my life by driving 40km/h in the third lane causing others to swirve into the second and first lane just to avoid her ?? Don't she know how bloody hard it is to break and stop in time when you're doing 140km/h in the first lane while both of your hands are holdings a curry puff and trying to put the handsfree kit and sending and sms in the same time while keeping an eye on traffic and on the phone itself, trying not to write the wrong sms, or sending it to the wrong person because some bloody Wira decided that he might turn on his NOS for some 2 Cepat 2 Marah action ?? While 1 minute after that, getting stuck back into the same bloody jam at the toll while the auntie who was doing 40 a moment earlier decides that she'll rather love the right SmartTagÂâ„¢ lane because the left one looks a bit dirty, thus forcing you to once again, break like mad while trying to do a flip over so you can avoid hitting her. Bloody women drivers.
Bloody women drivers.
Well, I'm back to updating it for now, seeing that this is actually read by 2 person who gets a nice laugh at me from time to time and was dissapointed that I stopped this few days ago. Apologies. Was quite busy these past few days. But doing the same old things, so it gets quite well, boring to me at times. But at least good news all around right ??
To start it off, it has been a bittersweet week, on one hand, my phone bills are getting higher, and I am not sure whether to say that it's a good thing or a bad one. We're hitting it off quite ok at times, and I really do think i have a nice chance of getting a relationship to work here, and she has dropped a lot of hints, asking me things, what she means to me, what she is to me, stuffs like that. But for some reason, I don't think I'm ready... I'm enjoying this too much, single life has bring back a lot of smiles I lost during that swinging moods of my fourth relationship. And not failing to mention the toll it'll take on my income, but that's more of a side thingy, since I really still don't grip the concept of value of money much too well. Don't put much thought into what I'm spending it on, as long as that was what I wanted at that moment.. you know that feeling ? Yes you do, I'm sure you have spended hundred of dollars on a makeup or dress that doesn't fit you, or 8 buck on that porn that doesn't interest you. Yes, you did. But for that moment, for that second of knowing you have just bought the best darn thing of your life is well, magic. Well, then there's friendship to consider, I'm having a nice friendship going on now with her, and would like to keep it to that, maybe a bit extra.. but really nothing much more. So we're back to square one really, and a small tug-o-war is going on, at times I'd love just to have her around, and at others, well.. she does it .. It gets boring at times, she does have those little mood swings that I have no idea if it was caused my pms or just simply her style of doing. Either way, I hope I won't find out the hard way ... but, there's something a bout beary that I can't quite understand my attractions to. One look at her, I melt a bit here and there, for no particular reasons...maybe her smile...maybe not...but I don't really care...as long as this electric still exist, I'm happy to go along with it. bless her small little smile..
On another note, my ex-gf's father passed away yesterday. Which brings me to a certain position of life I will always be uncomfortable with, going to a funeral. I'm never going to fit in, and never will I guess. I jsut have no idea what my role is supposed to be in the part of the play. I'm neither the one who cries, not the one who feels say and offers help and condolences or the one who acts like a bastard by not attending at all. How can I be sad ? As cruel as this may seem, I don't know that guy... Even if I did, I sadly have a strange outlook at life, and I do tend to get over death well, easily. We come from nothing and we're going back to nothing. I'm usually the guy who goes there, offers condolences and well, fucks off to the side looking for a thing to do as we're not allowed to leave a funeral until after 4 hours or so, until respects has been well paid. You cannot go in there, pray, offer condolences and fuck off. You'll be shot to death. Stick there for 1 hour or so, looking dumb, drink your mineral water and well, look around for any amusement really, talking cocks, gamblings, kids that run around, or smoke. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate funerals, I just don't fit into it. There are those who know their roles in the respective plays, funerals, birthdays, wedding dinners.. I don't. I fit in lets say, a theater, where no one really gives a shit about you, yet in a sense, are a part of a community that both of us are in. Which reminds me, Harikiri.. or was that Harakiri is showing in a theater near you !!! Actors Studio Bangsar :) It's only 27 buck, so really, there's nothing to lose. It's a comedy ..so it'll suit me fine. Back to topic, what am I going to do ! :( .. I can go there, but well, I rather not go alone... I don't like to be alone at these. I'd tell you how I did later on, if I do go, which I will when I think I should.
Have tons of movies I haven't watched, Trainspotting, Freddy vs. Jason, One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest, and no time to boost. My luck, eh ? Plans of vacation on the nov thingy changed again, agreed yesterday by the board of commitee, now we're going to spend
a night in Terengganu before decending to the cold, harsh and rugged hills of Genting. It'll take patience, road skills, and money to pump a full tank of gas in order for us to do 180km/h. And most of all, bloody luck. Luck ! ..The same place I'm going next week for a day or two, yes it's that fun going to a fun fair uphills :).. Let's all hope beary can go along, because she's still undecided as her timetable maybe changed, or not. Here's to luck ! ...It's going to be a very much torturing november, because I might be going to either aussie or japan also, and maybe stay back in klang east sushi and drink beer, so I really don't know. Aussie would have it advantages, getting cds I failed to locate in M'sia, language I can understand and well, getting called mate and cheers alot :) . On the other hand, it's quite boring and nothing else much that I can be amazed at, not like Japanese where there are gadgets, nifty electrical thingys, great music stores with bonus songs, girls, food, girls, more foods and some quite amazing site which blends the ancient with new, the scenery at some places is nothing short of wowness, and did i mention girls ? :p .. But the language, cost of living and well, lack of piracy really dampens thing a lot I guess. Haish, decisions, decisions, and that is even before I'm sure I'm going :O
Guess "I'll never stop the rain by complaining, because I'm freeeee, nothing's worrying me" is quite true for now. Things has comed quite fast and furious, which reminds me of Malaysian drivers. Wh oh why must those 45 year old aunties driving a mercedes like to endanger my life by driving 40km/h in the third lane causing others to swirve into the second and first lane just to avoid her ?? Don't she know how bloody hard it is to break and stop in time when you're doing 140km/h in the first lane while both of your hands are holdings a curry puff and trying to put the handsfree kit and sending and sms in the same time while keeping an eye on traffic and on the phone itself, trying not to write the wrong sms, or sending it to the wrong person because some bloody Wira decided that he might turn on his NOS for some 2 Cepat 2 Marah action ?? While 1 minute after that, getting stuck back into the same bloody jam at the toll while the auntie who was doing 40 a moment earlier decides that she'll rather love the right SmartTagÂâ„¢ lane because the left one looks a bit dirty, thus forcing you to once again, break like mad while trying to do a flip over so you can avoid hitting her. Bloody women drivers.
Bloody women drivers.
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10/04/2003 05:38:00 PM
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