Fuzzy's Useless Fact Of The Day:- I have too much free time in my hands to write this.
Quite a while since I've touched this eh ?? I'm quite suprised someone (well, 2 ,but still..) actually read this and I well appreciate that (for utter no reason at all, not like I'm getting paid for this, am I ?) thought of mind when you're reading this. I do wonder what people will think when then read this from the start.. prolly the fact that he curse about life too much and never seems to touch more into sex or private stuff. Well, I was going to tell you about this special time with someone I loved, but my left hand wouldn't let me share that moment :( .....Moving on...
I've no idea what I'm supposed to be doing on this stage of my life. I go out and spend whatever pint of cash I can find, though it's good I'm using them on books, Don Quixote & Me Talk Pretty One Day, the latter being an impulse buy. The leftovers? Nick Horny's Fever Pitch & High Fidelity, both amazing reads. Now halfway into Dave Eggers The Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius. Funny indeed. The gal from Kinokuya didn't called, or I'd love to keep my hope awake so I'd say they're still looking for it simply because I want it.
Suprisingly I must say for the past 2 weeks, I haven't been out much. Rather curl up in home reading, the only time I do go out is for business or my old friend calling me go yum char. Hhhmm, must be on one of my crazy mood again. It's been a long time since I've met anyone from KM ... No gathering oledi or no ajak ??? hhmm ??!!!?? Blah, I still need to see someone about buying me those cds :D.. In a good mood hor today me ? No reason why, maybe because I had a rough day (worked until 8+ because some stupid mistake that I made, miscalculation you see..), but everything seems, fine tonight. No stupid calls, annoying arguments (i'd talk more on that in a bit), grunts from me pops or rings from me mom. Not even in the mood for any songs, but I'm quite happy that I found Muse - Absolution when I yum char yesterday in Eng Ann. What else can go wrong in this guys life you must think (Be prepared..) ? I'd tell you. I'd tell you all about it then.
1. Stupid arguments. My ex decided to start an sms war with me for no reasons at all, or at least it somehow escape this brilliant mind of mine (I blame the hormones..) and in the very same day successfully made me sick, sad and bloody mad at almost anything. One of my friends told me suicide would be a fine way out, and I did thought, why not ? I have no nothing that binds me to the earth pyshically (I hate spelling this word) or to the world, mentally. The only thing I can say is a heartfelt apology to my parents and my grandma. Other than that, I don't think anyone would really think twice about me in 10 years time, they'll remember I was a friend, but nothing else. Then again, I don't seem to find any reason to do it either, other than the biggest fact was that my dog, a bullmastiff named Junior, Roque can't bite a man to save his life. Other reasons are the same old bloody bla bla bla my parents sucks bla bla bla which I'm frankly tired to use as a reason. Couple up, I don't really see a reason to die as much as I don't see a reason to live either. But I got a trip to Korea next year, so I bloody hell am gonna wait till that's over before anything else comes by ;)
2. Money. Yes, the ever old root of all evils. It's hard to get, it's easy to lose. I frankly still don't see the value of the money too much, spending 40 bucks at A&W for a 3 person meal, buying books, eating 80 bucks worth of sushi for 2 person, watching cinema despite knowing it was a stupid show (My Dad Was A Spy, idiotically funny, still idiot), the last time I remember I was soo eager to watch a cinema show for what it was is the LoTRs . And I have to save up to Korea to buy thingys ...So you better suck up to me now if you expect that chocolate when I get back ;)
3. Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllliiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnngggggggggsssssssssssss. I'm a bostord at times, yes. I can be good and kind, but I can be cruel and unworthy at times too (well, not to gals, I never know how to get past that). I have this stupid imagination of what it would be like if I was with her or if we went out, then it totally turns into something I've least expected and it catches me off guard and I'm stumped for words, making me look liek a)shy b)conservative c)geek d)idiot e)mute and dumb. But thank god for sms, emails and icq. I have a feeling for this gal now, no particular reason other than I do think she'll understand me more than anyone else I know. I sincerely trust me to treat her as best as I can if we do indeed gets a chance, but somehow... somehow failure has made me, mould me into a different person. Matured, yes. Distrusting, yes. Loving, yes. Annoying at times, yes. I hate love as much as I love it. I hate the misery of having thoughts, doubts, on what she's doing now, but I absolutely love the sunny feel of the suddent thought of her going into my head for no reason, the sweet message that runs in my mind knowing she was thinking of me when she wrote it, the thought of we, simply we. And considering the odds of that happening, it's more misery than :) now. So, boo for now.
4. Time. I don't bloody have enough. I've been putting off my work for this past few days because I can't bring myself up to do them at night. Work is supposed to be done by morning, this is supposed to be my time, however stupid it might be wasted on, it's my bloody time! Why can't I simply read a good book or listen to a fine album or write a stupid blog and not get crucified by it ? I need time, loads of it.
I'm sleepy now, I'd speed things up by revealing some good points of my current life. Quickly too..
1. I have streamyx.
2. I have a good job, not nice, but well enough to feed my tiny satisfication.
3. The bloody colleague left, and God has once again prove himself worthy, or something like that.
4. I actually have a good relation with my friends, not great, but good enough (ie:- we don't kill each other)
5. Same goes to my family.
6. My dog sits when I order him too ( though some food must be prepared, and he mocks me :( ... )
7. Muse - Absolution
8. Sony MZ-N610
9. Nick Hornby, Dave Eggers ...
10. Someone special to me ( I understand how you feel at times, and apologies for that day)
Well, boring eh ? But why do people keep coming back for more ?
Quite a while since I've touched this eh ?? I'm quite suprised someone (well, 2 ,but still..) actually read this and I well appreciate that (for utter no reason at all, not like I'm getting paid for this, am I ?) thought of mind when you're reading this. I do wonder what people will think when then read this from the start.. prolly the fact that he curse about life too much and never seems to touch more into sex or private stuff. Well, I was going to tell you about this special time with someone I loved, but my left hand wouldn't let me share that moment :( .....Moving on...
I've no idea what I'm supposed to be doing on this stage of my life. I go out and spend whatever pint of cash I can find, though it's good I'm using them on books, Don Quixote & Me Talk Pretty One Day, the latter being an impulse buy. The leftovers? Nick Horny's Fever Pitch & High Fidelity, both amazing reads. Now halfway into Dave Eggers The Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius. Funny indeed. The gal from Kinokuya didn't called, or I'd love to keep my hope awake so I'd say they're still looking for it simply because I want it.
Suprisingly I must say for the past 2 weeks, I haven't been out much. Rather curl up in home reading, the only time I do go out is for business or my old friend calling me go yum char. Hhhmm, must be on one of my crazy mood again. It's been a long time since I've met anyone from KM ... No gathering oledi or no ajak ??? hhmm ??!!!?? Blah, I still need to see someone about buying me those cds :D.. In a good mood hor today me ? No reason why, maybe because I had a rough day (worked until 8+ because some stupid mistake that I made, miscalculation you see..), but everything seems, fine tonight. No stupid calls, annoying arguments (i'd talk more on that in a bit), grunts from me pops or rings from me mom. Not even in the mood for any songs, but I'm quite happy that I found Muse - Absolution when I yum char yesterday in Eng Ann. What else can go wrong in this guys life you must think (Be prepared..) ? I'd tell you. I'd tell you all about it then.
1. Stupid arguments. My ex decided to start an sms war with me for no reasons at all, or at least it somehow escape this brilliant mind of mine (I blame the hormones..) and in the very same day successfully made me sick, sad and bloody mad at almost anything. One of my friends told me suicide would be a fine way out, and I did thought, why not ? I have no nothing that binds me to the earth pyshically (I hate spelling this word) or to the world, mentally. The only thing I can say is a heartfelt apology to my parents and my grandma. Other than that, I don't think anyone would really think twice about me in 10 years time, they'll remember I was a friend, but nothing else. Then again, I don't seem to find any reason to do it either, other than the biggest fact was that my dog, a bullmastiff named Junior, Roque can't bite a man to save his life. Other reasons are the same old bloody bla bla bla my parents sucks bla bla bla which I'm frankly tired to use as a reason. Couple up, I don't really see a reason to die as much as I don't see a reason to live either. But I got a trip to Korea next year, so I bloody hell am gonna wait till that's over before anything else comes by ;)
2. Money. Yes, the ever old root of all evils. It's hard to get, it's easy to lose. I frankly still don't see the value of the money too much, spending 40 bucks at A&W for a 3 person meal, buying books, eating 80 bucks worth of sushi for 2 person, watching cinema despite knowing it was a stupid show (My Dad Was A Spy, idiotically funny, still idiot), the last time I remember I was soo eager to watch a cinema show for what it was is the LoTRs . And I have to save up to Korea to buy thingys ...So you better suck up to me now if you expect that chocolate when I get back ;)
3. Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllliiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnngggggggggsssssssssssss. I'm a bostord at times, yes. I can be good and kind, but I can be cruel and unworthy at times too (well, not to gals, I never know how to get past that). I have this stupid imagination of what it would be like if I was with her or if we went out, then it totally turns into something I've least expected and it catches me off guard and I'm stumped for words, making me look liek a)shy b)conservative c)geek d)idiot e)mute and dumb. But thank god for sms, emails and icq. I have a feeling for this gal now, no particular reason other than I do think she'll understand me more than anyone else I know. I sincerely trust me to treat her as best as I can if we do indeed gets a chance, but somehow... somehow failure has made me, mould me into a different person. Matured, yes. Distrusting, yes. Loving, yes. Annoying at times, yes. I hate love as much as I love it. I hate the misery of having thoughts, doubts, on what she's doing now, but I absolutely love the sunny feel of the suddent thought of her going into my head for no reason, the sweet message that runs in my mind knowing she was thinking of me when she wrote it, the thought of we, simply we. And considering the odds of that happening, it's more misery than :) now. So, boo for now.
4. Time. I don't bloody have enough. I've been putting off my work for this past few days because I can't bring myself up to do them at night. Work is supposed to be done by morning, this is supposed to be my time, however stupid it might be wasted on, it's my bloody time! Why can't I simply read a good book or listen to a fine album or write a stupid blog and not get crucified by it ? I need time, loads of it.
I'm sleepy now, I'd speed things up by revealing some good points of my current life. Quickly too..
1. I have streamyx.
2. I have a good job, not nice, but well enough to feed my tiny satisfication.
3. The bloody colleague left, and God has once again prove himself worthy, or something like that.
4. I actually have a good relation with my friends, not great, but good enough (ie:- we don't kill each other)
5. Same goes to my family.
6. My dog sits when I order him too ( though some food must be prepared, and he mocks me :( ... )
7. Muse - Absolution
8. Sony MZ-N610
9. Nick Hornby, Dave Eggers ...
10. Someone special to me ( I understand how you feel at times, and apologies for that day)
Well, boring eh ? But why do people keep coming back for more ?
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11/11/2003 02:24:00 AM
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