Hm, kinda like an challenge to write eh?
Well fine. I'd paste this in my blog too later. I've just started college, taking psychology despite all my 'background' in computers. I have no idea why, mainly because I've lost interest in computer, or simply because I never had much of it in the first place.
I comfirmed one thing I've always suspected, one of my 'best' friends doesn't like me anymore and don't wish to see me around. It's kind hurting in a way, but I sincerely don't care anymore. Our relationship has been in a downfall since the accusation of me 'snatching' his girlfriend away. Despite the true fact that she was the one who say she liked me, and they were already on the split when i go out with her, I never told anyone that. Neither have I care to explain my position. Has my attitude cost me a dear good friend ? Yes. Could I care any less? No. I've apologise a long time ago, and if he can't get pass this, I don't see the reason I should bow down and beg. If he wants an apology from me, feel free to come and ask me. BUT FUCKING CONFRONT ME INSTEAD OF PUTTING A DAMN SHOW. Which me, myself is doing now. I have a problem. Yes, I can be fuckingly yippee-whoop-dee-do happy one minute, I can be fuckingly oh-god-please-end-my-misery sad in another, like now for instance. Its not that severe tell you the truth, like how a phone call by my brother to shout at me for a failing diskette has snapped me out of that writing mood and put me into place in reality.
Should I describe my first few days in coll ? Hectic. Not as hectic as it wil be soon when I starts my gym and some association I'm bound to join in order to boost up not only my reputation in the coll, but also the extra credit and achievements that will help me alot when I'm planning to go overseas. Made some friends too, and is trying to make more. My memory's embarrasing me though, I have no clue on mroe than like, 5 of their names despite already know more than 20 or so. The seniors are good, thats what I'm impressed by the most. I sat down with a total stranger and talked for more than 20 mins on Forensic Psychology, a major I'd love to persue in if the chance ever arises. Shit, the internet's failing on me. I'm afraid halfway through this, it'll hang again and everything I wrote will again be gone :(... Interesting part of it is the fact that I failed to get into the advance class of English. Only 3 people got in, and I've always though of myself as a decent english reader/writer or have a good command of it. I'm really interested in seeing the papers of those who qualified just to see how good theirs is, as you guys prolly knows, I love to read. But so far only anything ironic or comedic has attracted me, I stil have no idea why other better readings have failed to even touch the surface of my interest levels. I'd prolly be forced to read one of those boring dud novels and failed the exams and stuff. And I'd blame it on the lecturer.
Heh, the funny thing is that while my life is a total blank (or dark depending on which one you feel is more appopriate) to myself, I've found I have started to lecture others on the ways of life or some shits like that. I'm qualified to solve some love, life, views or advice for someone else, but yet all those things seems to fail on me. Not that I don't have a clue what I said to them or what I believe in saying, but I simply have no idea how to or at least have no way of telling when or why I should be doing that to myself in the first place. I'm don't wanna be who I am now. I wanna change my past, I wanna be something else than what I am now. I want to have a loving girlfriend, a good academic results and a bright future. Yes it does sounds greedy but you don't see me wishing for a nice car to go along do you ?
Yes, I'm a bad writer. And no I don't care, not at least for now. I'm going to end this simply because I can. Lyrics for this week ??
Snow Patrol - Run
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
The song even better. Simply love it. Been in the lsit for quite a time now. I have about 9-10 albums that I'm not willing to delete despite they're already on CDs, all burned down and safe kept. What songs can do to a sane person that is taking psychology out of all the other things he can pursue (or is it persue.. naw i think the first one's spot on) on this earth.
Oh, I made about 3 people quit IRC by asking them to do silly stuff like typing /server stay to 'hold on to the server you're on' ... yes, i can be a n00b b@$h3r b@$+@r+ at times :) ... and yes, that was the lamest from of geekspeek. Hmm, maybe if I submitted an essay with it, just to see what it will do to the lecturer ;)
Well fine. I'd paste this in my blog too later. I've just started college, taking psychology despite all my 'background' in computers. I have no idea why, mainly because I've lost interest in computer, or simply because I never had much of it in the first place.
I comfirmed one thing I've always suspected, one of my 'best' friends doesn't like me anymore and don't wish to see me around. It's kind hurting in a way, but I sincerely don't care anymore. Our relationship has been in a downfall since the accusation of me 'snatching' his girlfriend away. Despite the true fact that she was the one who say she liked me, and they were already on the split when i go out with her, I never told anyone that. Neither have I care to explain my position. Has my attitude cost me a dear good friend ? Yes. Could I care any less? No. I've apologise a long time ago, and if he can't get pass this, I don't see the reason I should bow down and beg. If he wants an apology from me, feel free to come and ask me. BUT FUCKING CONFRONT ME INSTEAD OF PUTTING A DAMN SHOW. Which me, myself is doing now. I have a problem. Yes, I can be fuckingly yippee-whoop-dee-do happy one minute, I can be fuckingly oh-god-please-end-my-misery sad in another, like now for instance. Its not that severe tell you the truth, like how a phone call by my brother to shout at me for a failing diskette has snapped me out of that writing mood and put me into place in reality.
Should I describe my first few days in coll ? Hectic. Not as hectic as it wil be soon when I starts my gym and some association I'm bound to join in order to boost up not only my reputation in the coll, but also the extra credit and achievements that will help me alot when I'm planning to go overseas. Made some friends too, and is trying to make more. My memory's embarrasing me though, I have no clue on mroe than like, 5 of their names despite already know more than 20 or so. The seniors are good, thats what I'm impressed by the most. I sat down with a total stranger and talked for more than 20 mins on Forensic Psychology, a major I'd love to persue in if the chance ever arises. Shit, the internet's failing on me. I'm afraid halfway through this, it'll hang again and everything I wrote will again be gone :(... Interesting part of it is the fact that I failed to get into the advance class of English. Only 3 people got in, and I've always though of myself as a decent english reader/writer or have a good command of it. I'm really interested in seeing the papers of those who qualified just to see how good theirs is, as you guys prolly knows, I love to read. But so far only anything ironic or comedic has attracted me, I stil have no idea why other better readings have failed to even touch the surface of my interest levels. I'd prolly be forced to read one of those boring dud novels and failed the exams and stuff. And I'd blame it on the lecturer.
Heh, the funny thing is that while my life is a total blank (or dark depending on which one you feel is more appopriate) to myself, I've found I have started to lecture others on the ways of life or some shits like that. I'm qualified to solve some love, life, views or advice for someone else, but yet all those things seems to fail on me. Not that I don't have a clue what I said to them or what I believe in saying, but I simply have no idea how to or at least have no way of telling when or why I should be doing that to myself in the first place. I'm don't wanna be who I am now. I wanna change my past, I wanna be something else than what I am now. I want to have a loving girlfriend, a good academic results and a bright future. Yes it does sounds greedy but you don't see me wishing for a nice car to go along do you ?
Yes, I'm a bad writer. And no I don't care, not at least for now. I'm going to end this simply because I can. Lyrics for this week ??
Snow Patrol - Run
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here
Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
The song even better. Simply love it. Been in the lsit for quite a time now. I have about 9-10 albums that I'm not willing to delete despite they're already on CDs, all burned down and safe kept. What songs can do to a sane person that is taking psychology out of all the other things he can pursue (or is it persue.. naw i think the first one's spot on) on this earth.
Oh, I made about 3 people quit IRC by asking them to do silly stuff like typing /server stay to 'hold on to the server you're on' ... yes, i can be a n00b b@$h3r b@$+@r+ at times :) ... and yes, that was the lamest from of geekspeek. Hmm, maybe if I submitted an essay with it, just to see what it will do to the lecturer ;)
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5/21/2004 12:05:00 AM
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