Wow, it's been almost a month since I touch this shit. I blame my pretty much hectic life (yes, I do have a life) and a poor memory on this. Not failing to mention the lack of interest really on writing. I don't know why, i simply has lost any interest in using my brain, I've tried but simply failed. Well, enough ranting I guess and on with the updates on my life.

What happened ? Hmm, quite alot I guess.

I went to Thailand last week on a last minute notice, went over there with a monk and lived in a monestary and generally learn how lucky I am sitting at 4am in the morning typing a useless blog, having a football game live on satellite and having air cond blasted in front of my face cold enough to make my nipples poke an eye out. I also know the importance of understanding the fact that there are other languages in the world, and that Thai tom yams are really something you don't wanna mess around without an unlimited supply of liquid beside you. I would love to bore you on about human believe in religion and my take on religion itself, but naw..

An relationship that was bound to doomed ended yesterday :) . Frankly I'm in some way, pleased. She has grown up alot, and undeniably have moved on from the place she was before, and I can wish her well and all the best. Don't get me wrong, I still have feelings for her, but I'm not sure if it's still what it was, and I don't really know if I'm ready to be in a relationship. She gone through alot this past month and I'm really sorry I couldn't be there for her, not that she wanted me there in the first place, but you get what I mean right? I CAN be in one and succeed in it, but I'm not if I'd be ready for it. Maybe this will help me in a lot of ways, and prolly I'd grow up from this too :)

Which is still my problem. I'm not mature. No I'm not. I try to be. I really do. But my childish behaviours and thinking gets in my way subconciously (yes, I can't spell, bit me) alot of times and at times its too late to know what you did wrong in the first place. But I guess it does comes with an advantage in some ways, I'm more likely to go into something without second thoughts, my childish 'humors' work at times and I rarely hold grudges, something I think alot of people can't really do.

My pc was broken too, rather the VGA fan was. Sent it to warranty, and they called me back a month later to tell me what I knew in the first place, that I need to buy a new fan to replace it because if I wanted to get it warranted, they need to send it back to Taiwan to bla bla bla bla.... yawn~~. Got it back today along with 3 new cds that I won few months back on 104.9fm. They gave me Bridget Jones Diary's OST, N'Sync's Celebrity and Gorillaz's self titled album. None of them impress me though, planning to sell it off as soon as possible. Which reminds me ...EVERYONE GO WATCH LOVE ACTUALLY. By far one of my fave movies of this year. Prolly because it was the only feel good movie that gave me a smile (not laugh) throughout the entire film. Which reminds me to get Bridget Jones Diary since I haven't watched it in the first place.

My clubbing life has started to revived, due to unknown reasons. Being at home can make someone act weird, I can assure you that. Not that I liked clubbing though, I got extremely pissed for the first time in like, ages yesterday. No clue why, suddently felt like drinking, anyone who has drank before surely will know the emotional comfort it gives you, though it'll ruin you pyhsically. I plain to stop it, and I'm convinced I will with a few more nights like yesterday. I simply will.

Hmm, what else ? Oh, met some really nice friends from IRC, something I never would have expected. And I sold a lot of things to people. Totally unexpected. And I got some nice indie albums off a store in Sg. Wang. Unexpected. I'm still fucking jumping and alive. Unexpected.