I've tried. I really did. But I miss her a lot. I'm still good at pretending it's ok, but it really hurts inside. I've tried to fill my life with other things, new friends, new fun stuff to do, new songs to hear, new lies to cover what I truly feel for her. But I just don't know what to do anymore with myself. I'm not the best talker, not the best person you'd expect to charm the pants off a girl, I don't expect to get pass any winning flag at all, but I won't bullshit myself into thinking at least I was at the race. Love is clearly something you never wanna lose out in.

I'm tired, I really am. I've stopped calling her and sms'ing her. And it doesn't help me any bit. The knot in my hearts tightens day by day, the tears are almost up where there belong, and down where they don't. It haven't come to that point yet, but it won't suprised me a bit that I will cry in the middle of a frantic Half-Life fragging session or simply through lunch. I'm all out of words and feelings to describe myself. So I'd pretty much leave it at that.

bb, I'm sorry... I really really am.

Ruben Studdard - I'm Sorry
Verse 1
It's like I missed a shot,
It's like I dropped the ball. (Damn I'm Sorry)
It's like I'm on stage, and I forgot the words. (Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like building a new house, with no roof and no doors.(Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like trying to propose, and I ain't got the ring. (Oooh damn I'm sorry)
But girl I've apologized a million times before.(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again for all the wrong I've done. (so get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Chorus
This is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,and make it real clear.
I'm sorry (for May) and I'm sorry (for June) I'm sorry(for July)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December. I'm Sorry.
(I'm sorry 2004)

Verse 2
Its like stayin' out at night, and
had way too much to drink.( Damn, I'm sorry)
It's like you change your hair,
and I dont say a thing.(Damn I'm sorry)
It's like we're fallin' fast asleep,
with no kiss, and before we hit. (Damn,I'm sorry)
It's like I forgot your gift,
on 02 14 03. (Damn, So sorry!)
But girl I've apologized a million times before.(I'll apologize a million more)
So here it comes again for all the wrong I've done. (get ready babe)
Here's One million one.

Chorus
Girl This is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,and to make it real clear.
I'm sorry (for May)I'm sorry (for June)I'm sorry(for July)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till your December. I'm Sorry. (I'm sorry 2004)

Hook-
(Girl I'm sorry for the way that I did you)
(I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart,for how I hurt you girl)
(I'm sorry on the weekend , sorry on the weekday)
(sorry for the things I did, Sorry for the things i said)
(sorry for the lies)
(sorry for the times)
I didn't care what you want,
I didn't care what you like.
But all I can do is,tell you that I'm sorry babe.
(sorry, sorry)
Oooooooooooooohhhhhhh!~echo~
Wooooooooh!
All them strip clubs,
all them hot tubs.
I'm gonna give them up,
'cause I dont want to lose you love no.

Chorus
This is my sorry for, 2004.
And I aint gonna mess up no more, this year.
I'm 'a take this one chance,
and make it real clear.
I'm sorry (for May) I'm sorry (for June)I'm sorry(for July)
in case I dont tell you.
August, September, October, November 'till December. I'm Sorry. (I'm sorry 2004)

~Starts Fading~

Girl,this is my sorry for, 2004.
Sorry 2004
Girl,this is my sorry for,2004
Sorry 2004