I can't get no sleep...

It's almost 8 a.m here and I found myself back on board about a couple of hours of rolling in bed. It has been a horrid week for me in terms of the amout of rest I'm getting. I don't think I'm doing my health any good.

But believing in the spirit of things happens for a reason, I put that philosophy into action as I convinced myself into fixing my shelf which fell apart AFTER I took out most of the T-Shirts I had hanging in there outside. It's only an initial investigation, but I believe a love affair with one of the shirts is the cause.

But in the quiet wee hours in the morning, my brain decides to have thoughts. Which I hate because it requires me to think and my head hurts from doing that :(

This past few months, if not past year has been a bliss. I sincerely forget the last time I was troubled/upset/enraged over something, anything. But we cannot disregard the fact that I have a attention span of a monkey, and a memory span of prolly a dog.

And with nothing major in my life happening, this dog is sailing slowly in the sea, having no idea where he's going or where he will be. But far from having any anxiety over this, I'm actually enjoying it.

I guess the lack of major themes in life opened up my eyes to enjoy small things, stuffs that we completely disregard simply because we could only look at the bigger picture. I've came to forget the fun of simply sitting in a mamak and talking with friends, I've forgotten the joy of watching people laugh, I've forgotten the ease I have in cracking up.

It seems like only yesterday I was sitting in a corner, crying my heart out with her on the other line both of us having no idea where we're going. That is about the only thing I still remember, as that was the last time I ever cried again.

The lack of distraction has also force me to interact more, something I've forgotten to do in a looong time. While I don't think there is anyone who actually understands me totally, I've learned to have emotions :D .... While empathy is still something I'm not comfortable with, beggars can't be choosers :p .. So as I have nothing do to, appreciating and understand others is as good as it gets for now :D

At this moment though, I have to admit I'm enjoying my little chats with aileen. In the time where I have a feeling intelligence is lost, people has stop maturing or simply don't have any command on English, she has restored that faith. And trust me, it's something to worry about when you talk more to some guy from UK you have never and probably won't ever met to your college friends who helped you check your final draft of a assignment paper.

But to end this all, since I'm bored now, I can tell you the most 'exciting' thing I'm most prolly going to have next week would be the new book Yin has bought for me on my request and my new work uniform.. so WEEEEEEE!!! to both, well maybe more to the uniform. It'll be cool and all, I imagine there will be a cape supplied as well. I'll take a picture and you can all stare in awe of it.

I'm so excited now I can't sleep. I can't hardly wait.